Faith

Some people that I know, who think they know me, accuse me of rationalizing or "burying my head in the sand" so to speak. They think that I ignore the bad things and pretend that everything is good so that I don't have to deal with life issues. They have never been more wrong.

I would say that any person has a whole other secret life going on inside their head. How we deal with the horrors and tragedies of life differs, not only in each person, but at various ages, after experiences, etc. What we choose to show the world and what we choose to keep hidden are two very different things. Many times even the one closest to us doesn't know the truth.

I believe in the spiritual world. I won't bore you with all my experiences, let's just say they happened to me and you will never convince me it isn't real. I also believe that the spiritual world controls the physical world, therefore I have chosen to fight my battles spiritually. Even that is sometimes hampered by "the dark side". But when I stop feeling sorry for myself and start battling, heaven and earth move to accomodate me. I know. I have seen it happen too many times. Somtimes it scares me.

Life is complicated. You pour yourself into other lives, sometimes they pour back, sometimes they flip you off. But it's all done in the name of love, so it's worth it even if you get the finger.

All I can say is, there is wisdom in aging. I keep trying to find what my mother is teaching me now, but alas, I won't know until I get where she is.